Do you ever wish you could just let loose with your feelings? I do! Almost daily I have to constrain myself. If I don’t I’m pretty sure that someone may call the “authorities” and have me hauled off to some sort of a padded room. You’re probably wondering what in the world I’m talking about.
Many of you know that I have been on a regular walking schedule for over a year. This summer I walked 5 miles per day, Monday through Friday. Normally I leave the house by 6:15 in the morning. Since we are inching into fall it is no longer light at that hour so I can’t leave until 6:30 or 6:45. School is also in session. So between leaving later because of the darkness, and the extra traffic due to school and people going to work, I have cut my miles back to a little over three and only three days a week. I always pray when I walk, now though, I have added a new prayer, that I won’t get hit. Some folks are very aggressive in their driving. If two cars are coming from two different directions at the same time, well….it gets a little risky for me as there aren’t many places to get off the road.
Anyway, I digress; back to letting loose with my feelings. When I walk I carry a piece of white PVC pipe that my husband cut for me, on the chance I run into a dog who may want to take a chunk out of my leg. I also walk at a fairy brisk pace. About 1 ½ miles into my walk the sun is starting to rise. My walk takes me in an eastward direction. This is where I want to let loose.
The early rising sun is a huge ball of the most brilliant orange you can imagine. The sky is several shades of dark blue, bluish black, purplish, white streaks and orange tint. Really, my words do not fully touch on what I see, it’s indescribable. On the days I am able to leave my house at 6:15 it’s still fairly serene and peaceful at that point of my walk. My endorphins have kicked in and I’m feeling super good, and BAM! I’m greeted with this beauty, this awesome beauty that makes me want to jump and shout and wave my PVC stick in the air. Beauty that makes me want to sing praise at the top of my voice, and I tell you it makes me want to weep with joy. This is one of the rare occasions I almost feel like I could fly.
Now, imagine me, out on a very public road, giving in to each one of those emotions in unison and I’m sure you can visualize the padded room.
The beauty I enjoy on my walks stays with me throughout the day. It also makes me think of Ps 19:1-2 The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands. Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge. And…. Rom 1:20 For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities — his eternal power and divine nature — have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made so that men are without excuse.
Spontaneous praise is almost as hard to stop as a runaway train. So while people may not see my outward feelings as I experience the sun rise of a new day, you can be sure God sees me jumping, shouting, singing, weeping, and waving my PVC stick in the air as I rejoice in the beauty of what he has created.
Have you let loose lately?