I remember my when my youngest daughter was barley three. She had such a hunger for learning and conquering new tasks. One day she was struggling with tying her shoes and I leaned over to help her. She immediately stiffened her chubby little hands and shook them up and down as she gripped her shoestrings. She looked up at me and with a big scowl on her determined little face and said “I do it my way”. I chuckled to myself and watched as she finally got her shoes tied. She was so pleased with herself.
Independence, self- reliance or doing it our way is good and has its own place and time for all of us; still we need to guard against being too independent when it comes to our spiritual walk. Have you ever thought that independence can bring about sin? When we do what God forbids or when we don’t do what he commands, we have exercised our own will. Sin separates us from God!
I’ve heard people say that God seems to be different in the Old Testament than He is in the New Testament. Wrath in the Old verses love in the New. I disagree. I believe he reveals his anger, love, grace, mercy, compassion and faithfulness in both testaments. I still have difficulty wrapping my head around the fact that he gave his only son to die for our sins, that we could be forgiven, reconciled, and have the hope of eternal life with God. It’s so huge that it’s extremely hard for me to comprehend. Do I believe it? You bet I do!! Do I live like I believe it? No, not nearly as well as I know I could because my self-ish-will prevents me. Still, I press on, praying I lay aside my independence, more and more and fill myself with His will.
I change daily, sometimes for the better, other times for the worse. God, by His very nature is unchanging.
Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground. Ps 143:10