Do you ever find yourself wondering about things that you would rather not consider? That has been happening to me lately and it has wormed itself to the forefront of my mind; so as customary for me I shall put it in writing and hope for some resolve.
I have mentioned before we rarely go to the movies or even rent one, simply because it is more than difficult to find one without language or sex as the main theme. Saturday we watched “Marley and Me” on TV. It was just about two and a half stars in my opinion. The ending is what really got to me. I cried like a baby when Marley died. This is where my first pondering comes in.
I have always been a sentimental, tender-hearted person, one who cries easily. Then it hit me, I haven’t cried in a very long time, I mean really cried. This revelation about myself disturbs me. Is it because over the years I have been conditioned by example that ‘perhaps’ I should keep my tears inside? If someone dies am I not to be broken-hearted, because if they were faithful, they will be in a better place. If they were not faithful my heart should be all the more broken.
Or has my heart become calloused? Have I become indifferent to the situations of senseless killings and violence that we are bombarded with day after day, whether by newspaper or television? Am I now desensitized by all the tragic, sinful things that I hear about everyday, things so against God’s way, yet lawmakers want to make laws allowing them to become legal.
I guess I am being very “politically incorrect” for writing this, much less thinking about it. I shall not apologize for it. I am sick to death of pretending everything is acceptable when it’s not. I’m tired of watching our country and our freedom go to hell in a hand-basket. I’m tired of seeing our hard earned dollars losing their value everyday because our leaders are corrupt, greedy, and dishonest about everything that comes out of their mouths. I am tired of being told I shouldn’t express my opinions because I might offend someone. Who am I offending; the one who thinks anything and everything is acceptable? Why is their opinion more important than mine? I fear too many of us have fallen victim of keeping silent too long. For me…it is time to break the silence.
I love my freedom and just as sure as I write this I see it being taken away. Will I awaken tomorrow to wish for the freedom I had today, only to find it is no more?
Yes, I’m really tired!! I’m told history always repeats itself. Is this what I’m seeing?
I am reminded of Jeremiah, he initially sought to bring his people to a condition of genuine repentance, he characterized the Israelites as “backsliding” people.
This is the word that came to Jeremiah from the Lord: “Stand at the gate of the Lord’s house and there proclaim this message: “‘Hear the word of the Lord, all you people of Judah who come through these gates to worship the Lord. This is what the Lord Almighty, the God of Israel, says: Reform your ways and your actions, and I will let you live in this place. Do not trust in deceptive words and say, “This is the temple of the Lord, the temple of the Lord, the temple of the Lord!” If you really change your ways and your actions and deal with each other justly, if you do not oppress the alien, the fatherless or the widow and do not shed innocent blood in this place, and if you do not follow other gods to your own harm, then I will let you live in this place, in the land I gave your forefathers for ever and ever. But look, you are trusting in deceptive words that are worthless. Jer 7:1-8