I'm Really Tired!!

Do you ever find yourself wondering about things that you would rather not consider? That has been happening to me lately and it has wormed itself to the forefront of my mind; so as customary for me I shall put it in writing and hope for some resolve.

I have mentioned before we rarely go to the movies or even rent one, simply because it is more than difficult to find one without language or sex as the main theme. Saturday we watched “Marley and Me” on TV. It was just about two and a half stars in my opinion. The ending is what really got to me. I cried like a baby when Marley died. This is where my first pondering comes in.

I have always been a sentimental, tender-hearted person, one who cries easily. Then it hit me, I haven’t cried in a very long time, I mean really cried. This revelation about myself disturbs me. Is it because over the years I have been conditioned by example that ‘perhaps’ I should keep my tears inside? If someone dies am I not to be broken-hearted, because if they were faithful, they will be in a better place. If they were not faithful my heart should be all the more broken.

 Or has my heart become calloused? Have I become indifferent to the situations of senseless killings and violence that we are bombarded with day after day, whether by newspaper or television? Am I now desensitized by all the tragic, sinful things that I hear about everyday, things so against God’s way, yet lawmakers want to make laws allowing them to become legal.

I guess I am being very “politically incorrect” for writing this, much less thinking about it. I shall not apologize for it.  I am sick to death of pretending everything is acceptable when it’s not. I’m tired of watching our country and our freedom go to hell in a hand-basket. I’m tired of seeing our hard earned dollars losing their value everyday because our leaders are corrupt, greedy, and dishonest about everything that comes out of their mouths. I am tired of being told I shouldn’t express my opinions because I might offend someone. Who am I offending; the one who thinks anything and everything is acceptable? Why is their opinion more important than mine? I fear too many of us have fallen victim of keeping silent too long. For me…it is time to break the silence.

I love my freedom and just as sure as I write this I see it being taken away. Will I awaken tomorrow to wish for the freedom I had today, only to find it is no more?

Yes, I’m really tired!! I’m told history always repeats itself. Is this what I’m seeing?

I am reminded of Jeremiah, he initially sought to bring his people to a condition of genuine repentance, he characterized the Israelites as “backsliding” people.

This is the word that came to Jeremiah from the Lord:  “Stand at the gate of the Lord’s house and there proclaim this message: “‘Hear the word of the Lord, all you people of Judah who come through these gates to worship the Lord.  This is what the Lord Almighty, the God of Israel, says: Reform your ways and your actions, and I will let you live in this place. Do not trust in deceptive words and say, “This is the temple of the Lord, the temple of the Lord, the temple of the Lord!” If you really change your ways and your actions and deal with each other justly, if you do not oppress the alien, the fatherless or the widow and do not shed innocent blood in this place, and if you do not follow other gods to your own harm, then I will let you live in this place, in the land I gave your forefathers for ever and ever. But look, you are trusting in deceptive words that are worthless. Jer 7:1-8

4 comments for “I'm Really Tired!!

  1. October 14, 2009 at 2:36 pm

    Yes, we are numb to the pain and suffering of those around us. And yes, this nation is in a downward spiral from which I don’t see any turning away. I think it will take a national disaster that will make 9/11 look like a birthday party to turn us around. Shortly after 9/11, our politicians seemed to be united and patriotic, but it was only weeks before the same old same old set in. I have no positive hopes for the United States at all. Hopefully I won’t live to see the final fall, but I fear for my children and, especially, my grandchildren.

    For the record, I’ve never tried to be politically correct and refuse to bow down to that deity.

  2. October 14, 2009 at 12:27 pm

    I think we have become somewhat desensitized. Such horrible things happen in this world every day that it seems like it has to be really drastic to even catch our attention, doesn’t it? Abuse of the elderly, children, animals always gets to me. As does incidents like the recent rape of a college student. Her roommates were tied up and forced to watch their friend being raped. But these are everyday occurrences in our land. I’m tired of it, too, and the moral decline of this country is frightening. We can pray, ask for guidance in electing the right people, and make changes from the inside out, one person at a time.

  3. Karla
    October 14, 2009 at 12:03 pm

    I too share your sentiments. I think you could say that I have somewhat of a negative attitude as to the direction our “Christian Nation” is headed. I know God is in control, but I believe He will let us take ourselves to ruin as a nation, if we continue in this direction.
    “What joy for the nation whose God is the Lord, whose people He has chosen for his own.” PS 33:12 NLT
    “Godliness exalts a nation, but sin is a disgrace to any people.” PROV 14:34 NLT
    I think you and I are feeling the disgrace along with some disgust.

  4. October 14, 2009 at 8:15 am

    Good post. Just this morning I was thinking about writing a post on how we live in a ‘war zone’. For Christians it really. You have pointed some of that out here. I get tired of the news sometimes, but try to remember that other societies have suffered through times like this. Not all of them emerged successfully, but a remnant always has. We may get to be part of that remnant!

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