Commitment

Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. Prov 16:3

As I read the above verse, I said to myself…this is powerful, especially after what I shared with you yesterday about my struggle to lose weight. I am being shaken up by “the Spirit which dwells in me.” I am facing some hard truths.

I have not committed myself and my plans to Him in the change my eating habits area, nor have I made any real commitments or plans on losing weight. Then I came across this quote: “There are only two options regarding commitment. You’re either in or out. There’s no such thing as a life in-between.”

So I’m going to put myself “out there.” And…this is really scary for me, because if I fail…well, I’m going to be really embarrassed, feel really weak and look really daft.  I am committing… starting today, to change the way I eat and also to either walking or riding my exercise bike at least five times per week. Many of you may be wondering “what’s the big deal,” just do it.

It’s been months, but I will mention again some of my very ingrained fears. I know logically my fears aren’t rational at this stage of my life, yet my brain seems to be stuck in my thinking. I’m afraid of loosing too much weight because I’m afraid of sexual abuse. As I said, I completely understand this is not a rational fear at my age, and I even recognize that it stems from years of being sexually abused as a child. It still stands in my way. (Yet another area where I fully recognize more of my own weakness, fear and not and trusting completely).

The other reason I hesitate is because it means denying “me” of something I find very pleasurable. One of my favorite things I love is going out to eat. You may remember an earlier post when I shared that my parents literally locked up every bit of non-perishable food in the house. My brothers and I were not allowed after school snacks at all, ever. I held this against them for many years, but have long since forgiven them. I don’t know why (for sure) and at this point in my life I don’t need to know why. Please know that I’m not trying to make them look bad.

Food became something I was denied. Now I can have all I want. See how out of whack things got for me. I haven’t been denied for years yet the word diet to me, means denial.  I guess I can’t see the‘t’ at the end of die. Ugh! Get away from me Satan!

As I take this on, the rational side of me is saying to remember the following…there are many ways to do this. I desire to make a lifetime change, not just a change to get the pounds off, rather a lasting change. I can still eat most of the foods I enjoy, just eat them in moderation and throw in some exercise. I want it and want it NOW…. Did I just say that??  Forgive the digression!

Does anyone want to join me? We could support each other….if not, I hope you will be cheering me on from the sidelines. Thanks for indulging me these last couple of day!

I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day. Tim 1:12

 

 

 

 

5 comments for “Commitment

  1. jel
    July 9, 2009 at 7:48 am

    I will be cheering u , and judy on, y’all can do it! 🙂

    Thanks jel…we CAN do it…with God all things are possible!

  2. Karla
    July 8, 2009 at 10:46 pm

    OK, I am with you too, and I am praying for you, as I know you will pray for me.
    I do want to make this body more healthy, and I must say that this subject also plays with my mind and spirit. I don’t like myself very much sometimes; partly for recognizing my weakness of lack of self-control, and partly because I am concerned for the health of my friends and family, and I love giving them advise, soooo why don’t I do a better job of being concerned over my own health?

    Welcome aboard Karla, You are always an encouragement and you are very health conscience…that’s why we call you Dr. Karla 🙂 In my estimation, you really don’t need to lose any weight, but you know your body. I will certainly be praying for you…and me.

    Since I am making a committment, honesty requires me to mention that I don’t like the way I look either.

    I not only would be much better off with fewer pounds, but there are certain foods, (which I love) such as chocolate and foods made with wheat flour that actually make me feel ill. Need I mention, that the foods that make me feel physically ill are also loaded with calories. Now that I have shown where my focus really is “self”, I pray that my focus will be on God for His strength and Will.

  3. July 8, 2009 at 2:18 pm

    I’m with you and equally need encouragement. I’ve been trying for a while without much luck and congratulating myself because I haven’t GAINED! The biggest reason I ever lost weight was 1) trying to impress someone and 2) fear. The person I wanted the most to impress is no longer in my life, so that motivation isn’t there. When I was diagnosed “border-line” diabetic, it scared me to death because of horror stories I’d heard within my own family. So I was very good about not eating sugar or carbs, and I lost 40 pounds, keeping off about 30. Now years removed, I’m not as afraid as I was; however,the A1C has been creeping up, and now I’m on a medication. If I could lose another 20 pounds, I might not have to take that medication OR cholesterol medication. So I’m attacking (or trying to) in a different way. I’m trying to be motivated to do it 1) to take care of this earthly temple in the way God would have me to, 2) for health reasons, making old age better, and 3) for myself. The method I’m using right now is a calorie count of 1200-1400 and keeping a watch on sugar and carb intake. Exercising has become hard for me. I enjoy walking but have gotten lazy. Doris and I clean houses, part-time, so on the days I clean, I don’t figure I need to walk. Then I did a lot of yard work for a couple of weeks, and when I did that, I figured I didn’t need to walk. I need motivation in that area! I’ll pray for your efforts and know you’ll pray for mine.

    I will be praying for you Judy…I’m feeling less scared now that I have “laid it out there”. I have two friends from church who have committed with me. So now I have someone to be accountable to. ? We are our own worst enemies sometimes.

    I am a very healthy person, but I know extra weight isn’t good for my body.

  4. July 8, 2009 at 1:04 pm

    I think we are kindred spirits! “I desire to make a lifetime change, not just a change to get the pounds off, rather a lasting change. I can still eat most of the foods I enjoy, just eat them in moderation and throw in some exercise. I want it and want it NOW…. Did I just say that?? Forgive the digression!”

    Pulling myself forward….I am saying with heart and mind…I AM IN WITH YOU!

    Thank you Terry…We will be victorious!

  5. July 8, 2009 at 12:22 pm

    Many years ago when I first emerged from graduate school, I counseled with a number of people for weight loss. There are many underlying issues that affect one’s eating habits. I think you’ll find being involved with a group such as Weight Watchers (or any of a number of such support groups) will be of great value to you. There is something about the support of “fellow travelers” as well as the accountability factor. Thanks for sharing.

    Thanks Greg and thanks for the suggestions. 🙂

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