I have wondered at times had I lived in the days when Jesus was on earth and about to be crucified which crowd would I be standing in. Would I be in the crowd chanting “Crucify! Crucify!, or would I be in the crowd with his mother, watching, brokenhearted, as her son is being led to be hung on a cross.
I love God with every fiber of my being and I love to think I would be courageous, that I would fight for him, trust him in all I do at any given moment. Yet deep down, when fear grips the soul, when death is lurking near, what oh what would I do? Would I be like Peter, one minute ready to cut off the ear of a soldier or would I deny him, just as Jesus told him he would and then walk away, weeping bitterly.
Today our nation is in mourning over the death and devastation that has struck so many families in Oklahoma this past week, and especially yesterday, in Moore OK. I did a little research and found the following states have all experienced tornados this year alone. AL, AR, GA, KY, KS, LA, MS, NY, OK and TX.
I won’t even pretend that I have any inkling of the pain and suffering these families are experiencing. To be on the outside looking in is painful and heart-wrenching in itself. As I go to God in prayer I can’t find words, so I leave my groaning to the Spirit.
Again, this brings me back to “what would I do” and again, I can only say, I pray I would do what I have learned from God. That I would continue to trust him, believe in him and cling to him tighter than ever. I pray that I would have hidden so much of his word in my heart that I could freely draw on it for my own peace, hope and comfort.
I am reminded of the following from one of my daily devotionals…
From Sarah Young’s, Jesus Calling
I Love You with an everlasting Love. The human mind cannot comprehend My constancy. Your emotions flicker and falter in the face of varying circumstances, and you tend to project your fickle feelings onto Me. Thus you don not benefit fully from My unfailing Love.
You need to look beyond the flux of circumstances and discover Me gazing lovingly back at you. This awareness of My Presence strengthens you as you receive and respond to My Love. I am the same yesterday, today, and forever! Let My Love flow into you continually. Your need for Me is as constant as the outflow of My Love to you.
Jeremiah 31:3; Exodus 15:13; Hebrews 13:8
I pray I will always give back to God, my God, my Savior, the same everlasting love that he gives to me.
My prayers are with each and every family as they pick up the pieces.